Sunday, December 6, 2009

I don't want to walk while sleeping...


There is always one short phrase that I always remember from ‘Tuesdays with Morrie’: ..kebanyakan dari kita melakukan sesuatu dengan setengah sadar, seperti berjalan sambil tidur..That is more or less what I can recall. It’s not this short phrase being right or wrong, but the point is that we must fully sober when we are to make decisions, especially about something that there is a good chance we will do for the rest of our lives. In the case of my present life, it is my job.

I by all means agree to it and decided to follow it. I got a golden opportunity to work with the second most powerful person in this country just after I graduated. I was very happy and, not to be naïve, a little proud. But the most essential thing is not that I could sit in the same room and listen to him talking. It is the chance to learn from the real policy makers and visit such beautiful places. I might have never dreamed of putting my feet on the magnificent Banda Naira or Merauke and having some conversations with boys living there, contemplating why the socio-economic condition is like this and that.

Nevertheless, I realize that it is not one of my goals, not in my early career. The required capabilities are yet to come. Indeed, it will not come if I am still there by now. I don’t want to be the person Professor Morrie talks about. I insist on being a person to walk his life soberly, not caused by temporary pride but lasting regrets. However, what I can remember up to now is that I do not remember having some regrets to have worked for my nation (almost) directly.


Wednesday, July 22, 2009

One Step is done, So many left!

Last week I have officially accomplished my mission in FEUI..
Despite deep disappointment, I learned to be thankful to God for what I have done..
What I learned is that I have never learned and I think it's time to learn for my long-term objective..

Well, sometimes what you really expect doesn't come just that way..Sometimes you are just
foolish enough to think you just have it in your hands but then it flies to nowhere..
Anyway, I just wanna think that anything that doesn't make you die will only make you stronger...

And I will be...

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

How to Trick the Tricky Ones

(Getting fed up with the so called biggest feast for a democratic country, I tried to contribute something to society by sending this article to a newspapers, but, unfortunately, the editor has left the newspapers so my article was too late to heed so that it didn't get published, too bad, indeed. It's okay. Just see and give your comments please)


Preparing for the upcoming legislative election on april 9th, every single ‘caleg’ has spent billions on ludicrous posters and banners to deserve one honored seat. Their becoming generous on this generates ambiguous effect. For entrepreneurs on posters and alike, this election is like a drop of water amidst dire economic downturns, whereas for laymen this is a kind of silly jokes. As an advertisement suggests along with economic theory: the more choices you have, the happier you are, but when the choices are off the limit, the less happy you are, indeed.

We are now facing the most perplexing days ahead until the day of election coming. We find people presumably trying to contribute something significant. Nevertheless, what can you expect from persons we don’t know promoting themselves with nothing as they promise but showing photos of celebrities, superheroes or even foreign statesmen? This article is trying to give a vignette of the situation of political competition nowadays and to give a little trick on how to choose the right person without even knowing their true personalities. The thrust of this article is not to sway you to vote ‘golput’. It’s up to the readers. I will only give some current situation, simple theory embedded on it, and how theory can guide you to the right choice.

First, I suppose that this current political atmosphere is somewhat similar to the case of used cars in the second-hand markets. The sellers try to conceal their cars’ qualities by showing up noticeable features, like colorful paintings, attractive accessories, newly decorated seats, while the machine is inferior. It’s similar to what ‘calegs’ do by now. They try to conceal their competence by showing either eye-catching sentences or pictures so that people can remember their names. For example, some ‘caleg’ tries to accentuate the fact he is a father of a famous singer, some person is proud of having a face looks like a front man of a band, while some feels profoundly happy with him faking taking pictures with Barrack Obama. Unfortunately, due to limited space, I can’t tell one by one of descriptions of how funny our ‘calegs’ are.

Second, a simple economic theory somehow provides a little trick so that we are able to pick the right one, assuming we are not into ‘golput’ societies. This simple theory called ‘lemon’s problem’ is drawn from a famous work of of 2001 nobel prize winner in economics George Akerlof. A simple explanation would be like this. Lemon’s problem is a problem that prevails when buyers can’t figure real quality of the cars they are going to buy, and thus buy the lemon (bad quality) ones instead of mint (good quality) ones, because dealers have more information than that of the buyers’.

According to Akerlof, dealers in second-hand markets are confined to limited quality cars because owners of moderate-quality cars who want to sell their cars due to high cost maintenance would rethink about it for their utilities for keeping their cars exceeding their utilities coming from selling with prices dropping significantly. Hence, cars left to be sold are the worst quality whose former owners’ utilities are at highest if they sell it because their cars have severe problems. If buyers are lucky enough, they may still find moderate quality ones in the show room as there are persons who desperately need money that they are willing to sell their cars.

The key word here: asymmetric information. At first the dealers don’t know the true qualities of cars offered to them until they pass it on to buyers who feel the same way with dealers at the first time. Feeling emphatic? You should be since it is akin to us facing legislative election coming in weeks, yes? However, the theory tells that we face unintended consequences: bad products drive out good products. Competent people don’t feel like plunging themselves into this feast assuming Indonesia’s political reign is full of deceptions and betrayals. I just want to say that not many good choices left. Indeed, it’s hardly.

The question now: what is the promised trick? It’s very simple in understanding yet difficult in practice. As explained above, ludicrous posters, banners and any media ‘caleg’ use imply lack of confidence of their own capabilities. We can therefore use the reverse logic. Choose the ones using proper promotions containing neither funny sentences nor pictures. It shows their confidence and capabilities. Unfortunately, it’s not that simple in practice. After narrowing down our choices to several people there is another additional homework to do: we need to do a little research on them. We need to heed their track records. There is no guarantee they don’t understand this theory. Just think for the best, prepare for the worst. Happy vote!

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

The Most Painful Torture

I suppose most people in the world must have thought how they regret letting time fly without doing something avail and I bet this must have been one of the most painful tortures they ever got in their lives. I have several time pondered how fool persons who can't attain the similar excellence to their peers. Because you know what? All people in the world are confined to 24 hours a day, every day until the Almighty God recalls them. This thing kind of reminds me of Lincoln's words "It's not how many years you live, but how you live years in your life" even though this contrasts with words of Russel (if I'm not mistaken) : "When you feel happy wasting your time, then it's not wasting your time, at all."

What do you think, folks? Have you put 'wasting time' thing in a box named 'my most painful tortures'? I used to think such thing, but apparently it had changed. I just threw it away of my most precious box because you know what? I think regretting things that won't be back does really give you a major setback.

Recently, one human disaster, so to speak, shocked me and just refined me up that the most painful torture in my life would be when you can't do something to help others who are powerless'...You can't do anything but sit comfortably watching others crying because their dwellings got swept away by something very unexpected before...because their family members had to go to the eternal land when they thought the time had been yet to come...

From now on I will put it in my sacred box, but not for too long...because it means I am happy to see it in the box, staying covered with dust in a very long time; I am proud of myself when I can't do anything....I feel very ashamed as a human being, how do you feel, guys?? Don't you feel the same way I feel, yes?

Friday, January 30, 2009

…..but you should give this a shot.

If you have a question to ask to me what my lifetime hobby is, I will answer, undoubtedly and decisively: learning how to live my live very well. I know that life is something very unique, it’s not ubiquitous to every person in every corner on streets in Jakarta, Paris, New York, Dakkar, Abu Ghrabi, etc. Everybody has his own story, not a common good. For some degree, I really like wise words from Forrest Gump, one of my lifetime favorite films, that are ‘life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you’re gonna get’. It accentuates the mystery of one’s life in it in a simple example of a common stuff. In everything I do, I can name it from something very simple up to the most elaborative I can do, I always starve for some kind of moral message in it as I believe that there is nothing I do or have done in vain for further development of me, but it’s not the aim of this posting. I just want to tell how a movie can really make you feel more aware, spirited, and moving at the same time, to the least.

For instance, every time I feel like watching movies, actually sometimes I have no special purposes in it, though. However, if you can learn something from doing it, is it like a bonus, yes? This film is a kind of a moving film, in a sense that it teaches you how to cherish the life you got, not to stop struggling and craving for unexpected extremely happy ending life, including your love story, and to remember something very memorable in your life because someday it can be very helpful, like the magnificent Jamal, whose life is full of surprises, fortunate, and happy events.

Yes, of course, you can’t learn how to live a life from merely reading piles of thousands of books or watching hours of movies. There is no text book, or alike for it. But, I this Slumdog Millionaire will give you some thought of how you should live your life, I suppose. Anyway, one of the interesting parts of it is that we can see how poor Indian is, only slightly different from Indonesian, especially Mumbai. Thus, there is still a big hope for us to thrive, focusing our energy on advancing knowledge. Oops, sorry, this is another story...

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Life and Rational Expectation

What’s life? Is it something to be stressed about or something that we should be grateful at? The world where we live is full of opposites, of which are the most troublesome adjective for most people, I suppose. Please tell me if you know there is something which doesn’t have its opposite and none of us don’t get mad at, because I am very eager to figure it out. People always feel something bad and sometimes for God for their miserable life if something unexpected opposite happens to them. There is black, there is white; there is day, there is dark; there is man, there is woman; there is happiness, there is sadness, etc. Consequently, no need to deeply brood over it, since when something comes, its opposite will replace it, regardless of time period of the replacement. Believe it or not, sun rises in the morning and hides itself when moon starts showing up. It’s timely and kind of beset every day. I know it’s not something extraordinary.

However, when the winter comes, the period changes. It’s no longer like in regular days; we can change our prediction in the winter, then. I know it’s a poor analogy to life, but the basic moral of this is that when something bad happens to you it will be replaced by something good, vice versa. So, don’t be so upset when something bad makes a visit to you, and, vice versa, don’t be so happy when something good happens to you because it can be replaced with something you have never expected before. See? Expectation plays a big role in life. I am so grateful that I have got a chance to study rational expectation in economics that teaches me to change my expectation, when some variables change.

The main problem here is that not so many people can manage their expectations. In return, some people may consider this life as a kind of proof that you are an imperfect living creature, that can be angry, depressed, and, interestingly, happy in just the short period of time and not to be able to make rational decisions every time. Some people consider this life as a curse because they have been experiencing so much severe pain in his whole life full of torturing, grieves, lost, and so many hard feelings. As a result, most of them might ask not to be delivered in this world and hope to die in young age. For them, I can conclude, life is something to be stressed about.

In my definition, life is something that can prove your existence as a human being since in this life you can feel the bitterness and sweetness of life. Therefore, I feel like this life as something that would make you a ‘real’ human being. By living in this world, human beings can taste such things, which are challenges for our everyday life. Life can make you explore all of your moral, intelligence, and feeling capability in order to survive. And of that, you can be more perfect every minute. To a large part, it’s exciting, indeed. I am not saying life is to be grateful at or stressed about, either because I am far from being able to recall my memory of who I was if I happened not to be born in this world. Thus, I can’t make an objective comparison, then.

The only thing I can say is that I love to live in this unique world even though sometimes I don’t feel very comfortable with my life. What about you, folks? Do you think life is something to be stressed about, or the exact opposite of it, that is something that should be grateful at?